Don't know what to do, fight for it or move on

[TRDiver]

Been a lot of tension between us. It is tough because almost every talk goes somewhat serious, but I'm working on not R talk at all.

The other night I was headed out to AA and went to say goodbye to the kids, she said I love you. I said woah, and she said well I do. It was very confusing because these had stopped within the last few weeks. I just wrapped my arm around her and she held onto it. Kissed the back of her neck and went to meeting. I probably shouldn't have done that, but n that moment we were whole again.

I can tell there's a part of her way deep down that cares still, but it is walled off and protecting her, as it should be. I've really harmed her heart and she has every right to be angry and hurt.

She has so much anger, I hope time and space can lessen that and maybe give us another chance. She's moving to uni today so very sad and time for me to dig deep as I become a single dad. So much to learn.