I had an affair... and I want my Fiancee back

[DBinSF]

Thank you for your responses. I AM committed to getting my [censored] together. And I understand that work needs to be done on my own. I have huge swings between "pink cloud" euphoria of what my life will be like once I truly have my feet firmly under me, and total despair that I've ruined the greatest thing in my life. It's a roller coaster.

Maybell, how do I learn how to meet her needs? How do I get them on my radar? I really want to learn that. Even if it's from a distance, or so I don't make the same mistakes again in another relationship.

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