H came to get the dog yesterday- he was 3 hours later than he was supposed to be. No text to give me a heads up- not like the old, responsible H at all. I wasn't home, as mentioned before. I was out GAL. He texted me when he was on his way to get the dog. I told him there were leftovers in the fridge if he hadn't eaten- I got no reply to that or to the pleasant note I left in the house. Doesn't bother me- just documenting. There seems to be no rhyme or reason to his response style.
Also documenting: perhaps this is the beginning of him reconnecting with the dogs... He has ignored them since early March.
Today I'm on a higher hill of the roller coaster ride. I know the ride is still running, but in have actively been trying to stay in the moment- I notice a HUGE difference in my PMA when I do.
I actively shut down thinking about the past- good and bad because they both do me no good right now. I have enough life experience to know the good memories will outlive the bad, anyway. Looking forward to that.
I also realize there's no need to look back- I analyzed enough to recognize where I made mistakes and I have been addressing them. So, I'm staying out of my own way now and continuing to move forward, one day at a time.
Getting my hair done today--- so excited!!!!! I had to stop 2 years ago because we couldn't afford it with my job change. Well, so happens I have a couple hairdressers in my program, so they do my hair for free and I help them study. Yesssssss!!!!!!
Me: 39 H: 45 Second marriage for both H left 12/2013 M:4 T:5.5
