Train, roll on ...

[Train]

Thank you, Wonka. I will absolutely check that website.

I'm just a little off-balance right now, I think. Maybe not off-balance.

I'm just struggling with the fact that I'm even having to worry about this at all right now. I mean, I shouldn't focus on how unfair it all is, I know. Because it is what it is. But I shouldn't have to be sitting here, debating a career - or NOT - based on whether my H is going to leave again. And based on what HE finds "attractive." I mean, that's just plain ridiculous, huh?

But, alas, that's where I find myself these days ...

It's insecurity.