Met with W on Saturday. She apologized for the delay in responding to the D. She said her atty is horrible. Anyway, we had a nice, civil conversation, but she has not changed her stance. She wants the D and does not want to reconcile. The delay has been financial. She is scared and worried about whether or not she will make it from a money standpoint.
We did talk about the A some. But for her, it comes back to the fact I had the A and failed the M. She acknowledged the other issues we had in the M, but ultimately the A is what ended it for her. The A was her boundary...once I had it, that was it for her.
I did hold her hand at one point when she was crying about the financial situation, and she held mine back. First time that has happened in almost a year since I moved out. I said take a deep breath...it will be ok. Asked her to try and focus on the blessings in her life...her wonderful family, her daughter getting engaged.
Tough weekend....hard to hear about her family and her D getting engaged. A stark reminder that life is moving on and it is moving on without her and I in each other's lives. Hard day today. No idea where to go from here or what to do.
