I know his style of compliment, it was a small one... but, still one. He was still trying to focus on the fact that it was an "old people party". He didn't need to say anything.
I did what I did & I am fine with the outcome of the party. There really wasn't many people to talk with & we were "adopted/consumed" by this other couple, to which we ended up playing darts with. It was him who "acted" couple like... not me. I was fun, happy & involved in darts...I wasn't trying to have convos with him or hang off him, etc. He offered the beer, etc. He allowed them to think we were still a couple, etc.
I had intentions of socializing with our friends son and other employees...but they didn't arrive. I am an outgoing person and know how to socialize. There were 3 groups of tables (all seats taken). The kids, the dart players, and our table..... so, we eventually joined in the dart games too.
The fixing is internal Jaye... and I have been doing my best.
It doesn't really matter what happened at the party.. its more about how I feel after the party.... and I was OK. It was just a party. I didn't attach meaning to anything.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
