Feeling so badly. Really struggling to get out of this horrible rut. I still can't believe how much things have turned with H and I. He used to text 'good morning' to me nearly every morning, not anymore. He used to send me pictures of the kids when he had them, not anymore. We were obviously talking and spending time together, not anymore.

He is pleasant the few occasions I have seen and spoken to him but obviously things have changed. It is so heartbreaking. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning, my house is a wreck, I don't want to go to work. I feel like I'm sitting around waiting for the next bomb to drop. I know I need to just go on with my life and let it be but I am really struggling to stop thinking about him and what's happening.

M: 42
H: 43
M: 8 years
S7 and D4
H has D19 and S25 from previous M
Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA
1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail
2nd separation: 5/1/14