I have the boys back with me for the next four days, it was great to pick them up and bring them 'home', great to a proper meal for us all(I've been living on frozen meals and take away for the past three days, with move etc)

I have clients booked in this week, and i'm thinking of doing a" Moving house/salon" special this week just to boost the coffers.

I've had a little bit of time to think about my sitch over the past couple of days, and I'm quietly optimistic at this point.

h is communicating more, whether it is to ask a generic question, or for help with the boys, we laugh a little more.

interesting thought, I ask the universe each morning what I would like to happen, and last week it was an intimate kiss from h. I went through the week, nothing happened, or so I thought.

last night I was telling h that I dropped my favourite bottle of perfume, and as I was telling him, I leant my head forward to the centre of his chest, he then did the double arm rub, and kissed the top of my head(that's the third time this week hes kissed the top of my head) now I know that doesn't sound very intimate in the traditional sense of the word, but I believe(and I know a lot of people who think the same) is it very personal.
it kind of makes me smile on the inside.

h has not mentioned ow again to his mother, and I certainly don't bring her up at all, the closest I came was yesterday when I noticed a bottle of brandy on h shelf, I asked him about it, and I could hear the lie forming before it even came out, I made light of it and changed the subject, he's not a brandy drinker, has always hated it. similarly when I went to pick up the boys this morning I noticed diet coke in the pantry(the kids were in it, I didn't snoop!)I just said diet coke? and he got quite defensive, so again i changed the subject, moved on- I know this doesn't sound like much, but that was huge for me, old me would have harped on about it until h was forced to either come up with a very convoluted story or he would have clammed up, or got completely exasperated.

i think h is starting to relax around me, I'm not holding out to hear much from him in the next couple of days as, except for family night on wedneday.

so much i want to write, but i think fatigue is kicking in, and i feel like i'm talking in circles.

any feedback is more than welcome and appreciated smile