If you have to leave the house, or go outside. You don't have to take the verbal stuff, show her you can walk away and compose yourself. I made some of the same mistakes you have made as well. Don't let them get to you, we are all human, and will make mistakes. You are right on the rejection thing, we will always want to take the easy path. I think we need to learn to take the hard path for growth though. The more you can face that fear, the better you will be. I have been having a very hard day today as well, and seeing that there is another in similar stich helps. Keep up the work, and remember to try what you can to get away from the hostility.
