The morning sun is shining like a red rubber ball.

[wishing, hoping]

Lately I have been feeling that J isn't in MLC. Maybe he's just trying his best and I am just to controlling. I am trying to look at things from different perspectives. Trying not to be so negative. Trying to lose the anger but it always creeps back in.

Tonight J was supposed to bring the kids over early so we could go over some financial stuff. Earlier he told me he would be by about 6 or 6:30 which is about an hour earlier than I normally get them. I heard nothing from him so I went over at 7:30 to pick them up. Like usual. He seemed put out and annoyed that I was there. He said "I was just on my way over WH". I said "you told me you would be over at 6:30 so here I am". He said the kids were watching a movie and didnt want to interrupt them and his phone was dead. I told him I was not happy about him not contacting me to let me know what was going on. He said well, WH, you're really not supposed to pick up the kids until 8:30 in the summer. I said this is what we have been doing and you haven't had an issue with it until now. He said are we going over this tonight or not? I said no, then he got mad and said he wouldn't let me have the kids until 8:30 and that I could just leave if I was gonna have an attitude. I told him he was the one who said he would be over at a certain time and never called or anything to let me know that had changed. He asked again if we could go over this stuff and I said that was fine.

I really hate dealing with this guy. I don't think he has a MLC. I think he's just a jerk. He uses these kids against me to get what he wants.

I have so much anger and animosity for J and OW and that's my issue. I try to let it go but there is always something and that will never change. I don't think my skin will ever get thick enough that this stuff doesn't bother me anymore.

WH