Sorry you had a teary afternoon, they will happen, but continue to stay strong Meghan, one of the hardest things to get over is your brain anticipating and running through things. Think of some activities or positive things to shift to when those creep up and hopefully at least some of the time it will shift your train of thought.
Find things that you enjoy and focus on them. It will be positive for yourself as well as be a positive in your H's eyes when he is ready to change.
Stay strong ~asat
Me 31 Her 30 M 5.5 T 11 0 Kids Bomb drop: 4/13, EA+PA: 12/13 Separated: 12/13, 3rd chance of counseling:7/14