Finding my way - part 3

[Meghan]

Today's my last day at my parents' - I head home tomorrow morning.

I'm feeling a bit teary. Everyone's been very kind to me, which makes me emotional and being away from this is going to be really hard. It also feels like H.'s return is coming up fast. It's been hard being away, but I'm also feeling anxious about facing him when he comes back and dealing with whatever happens then. It just feels like relationship issues loom over everything else.

That said, I am looking forward to some GALing. I'll be spending some time tidying the apartment and getting together with friends. I plan to do more of the things that I like to do that I don't do so much when H. is around - baths, reading by candlelight, dancing in the living room, experimenting with new vegetarian recipes. I also desperately need to get some work done, so there's plenty to do.

I'm also going to take some time to think through and plan out some 180s, but more on that later.