WAW having an A but she denies it #2

[shodan]

I just ran into her briefly (by accident). Her yoga class was cancelled so she pulled by in her car while I was walking the dog. I probably a little too cold frankly. I told her we had dinner plans and that she could meet us if she wanted. I also reiterated that I know and she knows she is not being honest with me. I told her that I am fighting for my marriage, my kids and our home. She said we would talk later. I asked if she would be honest and she said yes (with tears in her eyes). I told her that I could not talk tonight because I was going out. She asked if I had a babysitter and I said no, you are watching them. She said we would talk when I got back tonight.

I hate to be a pessimist, but my guess is she loves the OM and really wants a divorce, but feels very guilty about it, me and the kids. But I need to stand strong. I don't want to lose my W but I cannot make her stay with me. If she wants to destroy our life, our home and our marriage (in addition to our kids), then that is her decision.

I feel angry, which is not the right way to approach tonight. I need to calm down and PMA.