The reason you are so horribly STUCK, the way I see it, is because what YOU want is so unhealthily enmeshed in what HE wants (or more accurately, in what you perceive he wants from you).
You should be doing a LOT more studying about "enmeshed relationships" and "co-dependency."
I firmly believe that THERE, you will begin to find the answers to this unhealthy addiction you have to your xBF.
