Back from vacation. Have never felt so alone or lonely my entire life. Will post what happened at some point. Did well with my goals and DB the first 4-5 days. After that it went downhill. Although it goes against DB I am glad I was able to tell H some of my thoughts. I found out by snooping there is an OW. He spent 3-4 days with her prior to our vacation. He is denying it, but I know. H is completely closed to the idea that we could ever reconcile. I feel like I've been thrown back in time. I am not ready to give up on my marriage and family, H gave up a long time ago.
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
