D20 and I went to an outdoor concert again last night. Every Thursday now we seem to be going together to these concerts. It's a nice night out together. D17 and I went to the park together the previous evening. I'm starting to look at dating again...yuck! I'm actually feeling a bit lonely. It's been about a year since I ended things with SDA Lady for good. I miss having someone around who actually gives a crap about my day and wants to share hers. I miss holding someone's hand and going for walks. I miss going to dinner with another human being lol. I miss...you know what too. I've been scanning the dating sites periodically just to see who's out there. I'm just not sure I want to start a process that would demand large chunks of my time and energy. I like doing what I want when I want and not worrying about pleasing someone else or meeting their needs ( I tend to forget about my own needs in my campaign to not be rejected by the object of my desire lol) I did come across a lady who loves photography, which is my latest year long obsession, unfortunately, I've already met her in my last search for love. In my last round of meeting women I learned not to give second chances, when someone deals with you in a way that does not impress you, move on. I told my best friend this in regards to a woman he was dating recently. I told him that the stuff he's seeing right now, at the beginning, is exactly who that person is and it is unlikely to change...so move on. Turns out she was way too not ready and the relationship just died out. Anyway, I'm just pondering...but it would be so nice to have a lady to do things with in the summer. I miss that. That said, I'm still OK with being me and doing what I like to do. Taking care of me has to be job 1...and stay that way, whether in or out of a relationship. That's my work to do and that's a tough assignment to take on.
