Still confused

[dawgy]

I discovered A about 4 months ago . it was 4 months old before i discovered . I havent seen an attorny yet .She was giving me the signs that we were working things out and i was backing way off giving her space .Im try to be strong but its so brutal .I know I have to man up here . Yeah ive been trying to put on a show in front of them , but i feel like im on the edge of a breakdown