Although I still miss talking to and sharing with H. (sometimes profoundly), staying out of contact seems to be getting a bit easier.
Getting enough sleep makes a huge difference in my mood and ability to manage how I'm feeling. Tired days make for lots of emotional problems.
There are a lot of little things that I enjoy that I've given up over the years. I'd like them back.
Working is a reasonable distraction and also makes me feel better. The trick is getting started, but limiting my time reading up on fixing marriages helps.
I feel kinder, more positive, and more open when I'm on my own. I don't know why this is, but it's something to look at further.
Lots of people in this world have issues that are far harder to deal with than mine. This is hard and difficult and painful, but I am still insanely lucky in a lot of ways that I would like to appreciate more.
M - 34 H - 36 Together 10 years Married 4 years BD - March, 2014
