It's a really good point. It's hard to not want to rush. I've figured out it's totally fear that is driving that rush. Like mdu noted in her thread, the fear of time is not good, and I need to shed these fears. My W is probably feeling the effects of what is going on WRT going dark, and having equal guilt and confused feelings, and I may just not know. I don't expect change to occur quickly or fast at all. I wonder if it will occur period, but that's neither here nor there. There is a part of me that wants to take a strong stance and lead by getting the legal separation organized, as well as starting to date. But then I realize I am doing all those things to get a result from her. Not being true to myself, and I realize I'm not going to do that.
Looking forward to my trip with my kids. Can't wait. And it can't come soon enough.
