Finding my way - part 2

[Meghan]

Journaling: Today was relatively calm. I managed to get some work done, get out for a bit, and generally focus on moving forward and imagining a good life for myself.

That said, I've found myself worried about how to talk to H. on his birthday a few times this afternoon. Interacting with him feels like a big deal now since we haven't really been in contact in days, and tomorrow I'm going to probably spend some time envisioning how that could go, so I'm as prepared as I can be for it.

I'm still not sure about how I actually want to contact him, though. Every decision like this still feels bigger than I want it to. Even when I acknowledge that his response to what I can do is not something I can control, I still have to make a choice in the first place, and I still want it to be the right one.

Phone, email, or IM? Decisions, decisions...