Speaking of fear....I'm definitely afraid of losing H, very afraid. And no doubt, he knows it. I really need to get past that. I just really, really do not want to be alone. I really haven't been alone for any significant portion of my adult life. While I don't at all mind spending time by myself (and rather enjoy it), I hate the thought of not having that someone who is always there, to share the joys and the challenges with, to lean on, to help you with stuff, to share the burdens of every day life. I literally dread the thought of a life alone. I know it keeps me from letting H go, from really standing up to him firmly. But I don't know what to do about it. I'm stuck.
M: 42 H: 43 M: 8 years S7 and D4 H has D19 and S25 from previous M Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA 1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail 2nd separation: 5/1/14
