I appreciate the advice, it is easier said than done. I am trying to stay patient and focused on fixing me first. I find it difficult due to the fact that we were a great couple up until a few months ago. We had a great family life with our children doing everything together and now its done.

The separation hurts more due to the fact that my children who are 4 and 6 years of age want their Mom and Dad to be a family and cant understand why. When they are with me on the weekends they are constantly asking why cant we be a family again. I try and explain that Daddy still loves Mommy and you guys and will always be there for you, but its tough when they are used to doing everything with me and seeing me everyday. We now only have telephone conversations, but as we all know their attention spans at that age are short. I look forward to seeing them every other weekend, but its not enough and we are 127 miles apart. I fear that I am going to lose my connection with them because of the distance.

I understand that I must detach from my wife but it is difficult to do when my children are so innocent in all of this. I almost wish I could be able to hate her because it would be easier, but she is a good woman. I made a few mistakes in our relationship not realizing how angry and controlling I made her feel. We lost our way with me not communicating and bottling everything up until everything came crashing down causing me to become an angry Monster.

I now have my eyes wide open sought out professional help, which has made me realize and see things differently. I actually appreciate and love my wife even more now than ever. Is this normal or am I crazy? I feel guilty for making her feel this way and turning a free spirited loving person into a stonewalled B**ch, which is not in her nature. She is one of the most open minded loving people I know and I turned her in the old me. It is almost like I am getting a taste of my own medicine, she is now the angry one and I am the one trying to be calm and rationalize everything.

I am trying to give her space as well as time hoping that someday things may change, but everything is going too quickly. We are already dividing our assets selling our property, me buying her out of our house and her moving contemplating buying a new home. This leads me to believe that their is no hope of her returning in the future due to the fact that she and I will have too much invested, where there is no point of return.

I try and stay positive and strong by seeing the good in the separation. It has made me get help for my anger issues, it has made me realize my flaws and mistakes, it has made me connect with people who I shut out of my life. I guess I must take the good that came with the bad in our breakup. Again I am holding on dearly because I came from a divorced family and never wanted that for my children. Anyway I apologize for my wining and appreciate everyone's support on this website, thank you!