Hi T2, You sound like you're doing great. I hope your W can find some peace going forward. I was wondering, now that she is realizing that the last 5-6 years weren't all about you and you weren't the cause of her unhappiness, why does your W still not want to at least give your M a chance? Maybe some IC and MC. Seems like with kids involved, that might be a way to go. Does she want to learn to be "on her own" since she never did? Is she just too unable to face the hurt and damage she caused?
Now that my W has left and filed and I'm alone when my D is at her mothers, I do have to be careful about getting enough sleep and eat right. Funny how I lose track of time or just don't want to bother to make a decent meal "just for me"! Hang in there and I think by the way you are handling the whole D situation, you are definitely being a great role model for your boys!