Finding my way - part 2

[Meghan]

Maybell, thank you - you are consistently able to say things that get me to calm down, reflect, and feel better. Thank you so much for all of your words of wisdom.

I'm much more up and awake now and feeling a good bit better. I need to get in some work today, and then I'm going to spend a bit of time out shopping with my mom. I've been living like a student for a long time (two years past actually being a student now), and I'm looking to make the apartment a bit nicer with some new household things coupled with a good cleaning and decluttering.

I think this is a good 180 in terms of actually making the apartment more pulled together and more functional. This is something that's been bothering both me and H. for awhile now, but I haven't really done a lot about it and have mostly let it frustrate and annoy me. Actually making some changes should feel good - it's something I've wanted to do for awhile now, and it might be good for him, too.

It's also a 180 in terms of spending a bit of money. I've been extremely frugal for so long that spending is something I very rarely do. Being a bit less tightfisted will be good for improving the apartment, but might also show a bit of a change to H., too, since he's always been frustrated with my unwillingness to spend money, both in general and on myself.