The things I've done were done years ago. A lot has changed since then. The things I've done had everything to do with the addictive lifestyle I led, and nothing to do with my wife or my love for her. I've come to terms with that back in 2011.
It is absolutely sweeping it under the rug, and there is nothing wrong with that. Why would I continually bring myself back to a time when I was selfish and destructive? I want to leave that life behind. I want to be able to forgive myself for what I did. That can never happen if I keep beating myself down over and over again. That can never happen if I can never let go of the guilt. That can never happen if I keep excusing my wife's infidelity. I could never respect myself if I keep doing that. And I certainly couldn't expect respect from others.
Last edited by mindsin; 07/24/1401:32 PM.
M: 15 years BD: 6/25/14 EA/PA: starts 5/14/14 11/30/14 - A ends 5/15/15 - D is finalized. 11/28/15 - Start of new LTR with a wonderful woman (and still going strong)!
