Holy crap MLC . You just done a number on me BIG TIME. That was so beautifully written and struck a major chord with me dear . Thank you so much .Your right in every way . I just paralyze myself with fear of her leaving me and the kids that i cant eat , cant sleep cant do anything except detach because detaching alleviates the pain some what . I have so many regrets , thinking that i could have stopped her from behaving this way but then I realize maybe I couldnt have done anything .
Thers alot of conflicting information out there as how to behave and how to react . On one hand some people here are saying accept responsability for your role in the affair and on the other side people are saying its not my fault and her not me . But in the end I know what I want . I want to grow old with her and im petrified that she doesn tfeel the same . She did before because she told me so , but I guess the fog is in the way now and hopefully someday it will clear and she will want to be my wife again . I pray every night that she will even though she shows me everyday that its not in the cards anymore . Imessed up today when i texted her about an issue with one of the kids and I automatically said " love ya " like always without thinking and she replied back " ok " THAT HURT SOOOO MUCH
Me 45 W 45 Son 16 Son 14 Married 23 together 27 W threatened sep several times W still at home A discovered Mar 17 2014 A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )
