The morning sun is shining like a red rubber ball.

[wishing, hoping]

Thanks KML and Wonka. I don't know what my problem is. Too much guilt. I think it has a lot to do with my anxiety issues.

Since D will be with her daddy tonight and I have a doctor appointment, I dropped the dog off at J's house this morning. OW answered the door bright and sunny as always (not). The dog tried to make an escape. LOL! I don't know why, but it really torks me off she has set up residence in this house like she owns the place. I am trying to work through it and let it go. Some part of me (the detective part I think) is still searching for "why". I keep thinking there is something about her that is better than me. More desirable and I have this nagging need to figure out why. But I will probably never know why. And that bugs me.

On another note, J still continues to be overly nice to me. Not sure why? Does he want something or is he genuinely trying to be civil? I should probably put down the guns and stop thinking the worst about him, but once bitten twice shy. He calls me every day for some reason or another. Sometimes a couple times a day. I just shake my head. Sometimes I answer, other times I don't bother. He called me the other day to tell me he was on his way to Menards and did I need him to pick up anything for me while he was there??? WTH?

So a doctor's appointment tonight, D's baseball and dinner with DivorceCare group tomorrow, groceries on Friday, beach and dinner with a friend on Saturday and kids back Sunday. I am really starting to fill up my time away from the kids. I'm thinking about taking a dance class. Good way to get back in shape and D has inspired me.

WH