Finding my way - part 2

[Train]

Meghan,

Don't expect too much from yourself so soon.

I could be wrong, but you sound to me like you are a "do-er," a "fixer." Those of us who are like that often feel defeated and weak when we don't live up to our own expectations of ourselves. Even if those expectations are way too far-reaching.

When we are facing the "death" of a relationship (I'm definitely not saying your relationship, per se, is over ... but surely the one you guys had BEFORE is dead in the water, agreed??), we go through some of the same feelings as we do when - let's be honest - someone we love has died. Except, in THIS case, they're still here. And they've betrayed us.

So we are dealing with grief, mourning AND betrayal.

Go easy on yourself.

At the same time, continue focusing on YOU and things that make YOU happy.

I know it feels awkward. But you are getting stronger every minute of every day.

And pretty soon, you will get to the point of asking yourself: is what HE is offering good enough for ME?? Don't feel guilty about asking yourself that, either.

As a vet says on these boards: You're the cake. He's the frosting. And that's the bottom-line in even the healthiest of relationships.

Find peace with and in yourself.

If he rejects that? Silly him.