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Hi 25,
You really wacked me with a 2x4 and I needed it. In not following the program, I hurt my chances w my XH and did more of the same going down cheeseless tunnels. I do see an IC however not as often as I should due to money issues. Nonetheless I have quite a few books on self improvement to work on my self confidence. I haven't always felt like a bad person it's more of feeling like a failure. I I understand that my perception is very skewed when it comes to myself which is what I am working on with my IC because she thinks I am too hard on myself and expect perfection. I picked up DR again and restarted my notes. I did buy watercolors, paint brushes and paper to start painting like I used to. Sorry to digress, I do have to work on thinking before acting as being impulsive has caused more problems than help. I've seriously got to dig deeper and love myself.....I did contact my XH on my remaining furniture at the house and left it at that. He replied back politely and we will get it done this week. Other than that I have occupied myself with my kids, working and getting our apartment in order. I don't want to be the person others think I am just be a good person and like myself. I'm really glad you looked at my sitch and advised me