Going to see my physician tomorrow too. I'm considering anti-depressants, have never taken anything like that before but feel like I may need some extra help in the near term, we'll see what she says.
There is no shame in that, mdu. I myself had my doctor prescribe two of them for me -- one for any short-term crisis or "panic attack" type situations (which thankfully, I only had to ever use two or three times), and one daily one that was actually an anti-depressant/anti-anxiety one, that would help "even me out" over the long term.
I stayed on that last one a good full year after my wife and I got back together, even, as it really helped me piece, and then I eventually got off of it. Do what you have to do to get your focus and demeanor right.
