"... It must mean something... "

and this is why you're struggling.

you insist that everything means something.

coffee, complaining, pissing, brushing against you, parties, driving in the car, not driving in the car, cookies, etc etc etc etc etc.

you're so desperate that you invent "somethings" in nothing.


then you take this inventing "something" and force it to become baiting, or manipulating, or a carrot. but its all YOU.

"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".