Eyes on the prize...

[artsy]

(((((GB))))) Ahhhhhhh! Yes! I feel a connection with you because we were dropped into this water pretty much at the exact same time...we're still floating along and our lifeboats are coming along nicely!!

I rarely post anything, but I follow your sitch. Sorry your H has been kidnapped by pirates. Sounds like you have amazing kids!!!!

I definitely agree my H feels the shift- he waffled so much for 6 months and then declared on our anniversary he was never coming home. Literally since that day a month ago, I have heard from him more than I did the past 7 months combined! And I haven't really done anything different- it's like he said it out loud and it finally made him realize what the future might be.

Now, I have shifted my thinking, but not my actions. I tried to go dark, but he ignored it LOL! All of his stuff is in boxes in the garage now, but he doesn't know that, either. It's like he just "knows" on some level.

He's definitely a lost soul right now. He always peppers me with compliments, which are nice but I believe absolutely NOTHING that comes out of his mouth.

You are correct: his actions are screaming at me right now. He clearly is conflicted.

Now, he also told me in his email that he thinks about me all the time. THAT I believe. I'm sure he is reminded of our sitch everywhere- we were so close once upon a time. (Not saying they're all mushy thoughts- in fact there may be a whole bunch of anger and resentment in there). I'm sure the guilt has a lot to do with that, too.

I shall continue to stay in my sandbox and be fabulous! I've prayed for guidance on communication and contact- so far NO inclination to reach out for any reason, which is fine with me! But I do feel compelled to be a safe place for H to land....... I feel something may be happening soon where he may need a sympathetic ear or strong shoulder. After all, I AM the kindest person he has ever known.