You know what guys? I have a question.

We work so damn hard and moving forward, growing and dealing this insane hand that was literally dumped in our laps by our MLCer.

Yet we remember the good times before they went MLC and we still mourn it and yearn for those good times.

I want that again! But I do not want it with EX.

Are we wrong to want to have what we used to have? Can't we find that with another person that wishes to have the same thing too?
What's wrong with wanting to have a family intact, a loving person to be there for you, to have a best friend and lover? Someone to walk this path of life with?

Sometimes I've really felt alot of pressure, by myself that I must show the world and EX that I do not need him, I do not need anyone, and I will do this all on my own! But damn it, doing this all alone is one hard and cold road to travel. I don't like it anymore!


M=42 XH=44
M=18 T=21
D14 D11
Divorced 4/2012
XH marries OW 6/2014.