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Meghan, you're right that my XH has not really owned up to his part in our M ending. He only acknowledges that he chose not to speak up. As for the apologies, I have done that a lot as I do feel they are warranted and sincere however even my XH has told me that I don't need to apologize anymore. And about the manipulate/dominate, I reread my post and yeah big time I see that he is using me as the scapegoat for the whole thing. I don't know if part of this has to do with the PTSD he is dealing with but it's like he wants to punish me?
As for what would have to change on his behalf in order to have a fresh start? I think forgiveness would be a huge one and be more flexible or tolerable of others faults and ways. I'm sure there's more but I have just been focusing on my faults and areas of improvement.
Thank you for your message and I am definitely thinking some more about our interactions and questions you asked. Reminds me of Shrek with the layers. I appreciate it Meghan