I see now I was not clear in my earlier post which was the cause for confusion.
To clarify: I do not retreat or go dark on H to "punish" him. I often feel the need to put some space between us when I am feeling upset; either because of something he's done, or because of things I'm working out on my own, or because I'm enjoying what I'm doing and don't want to give him the opportunity to ruin it.
Sometimes I just don't want to see him!
I mean, it's not like he's pleasant to be around, is treating me well, being honest, or doing any of the things people do that draw others to them.
Sometimes I'm not at my best, feeling low, and I just don't have it in me to put on that happy face.
I don't want it to come off as punishment; it's not. More like self-preservation and avoiding unpleasant feelings.
We spoke on the phone several times now, that seems good. Feels good.
He has another "mystery appointment" again tomorrow and I am trying hard not to snoop...
He was ANGRY with me after serious NC when I left for my trip. He did very little here in my absence (unusual) and I had to take out the trash. Right on top was the note I'd left him with instructions for the pups.
On it, he'd written some nasty comments: Re: picking up dog food "Go get some your damn self!" Among other tidbits. Silly because he always gets the dog food. My days of throwing around 60 pound bags are over....
Anyhow. The note and his snarky comments was in the trash, he went and got dog food. Guess he knew he was being an a-hole.
He clearly is pissed at me having too much fun (true!) while he is lonely and not getting laid by all the babes as planned now that he's "on the market."
Surprise!!!!
Anyhow. The upside is we're talking again. We'll see what this week brings.
I will be more available, more friendly, more sexy, stopping well short of pursuit or impersonating a doormat!
I had a great weekend. Being home is a mixed blessing.
Goodnight, DBers, wherever you may be this evening...
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Me 54 Him 63 M 23 T 29 0 Kids Funny Farm of Rescues 12/12 OW-- 5/13 ILYBINILWY: A denied 9/13 Proof OW: ENDED 2/14 Got D papers on my BD I kicked him out for my sanity 9/14 He wants to "talk"?
