Trying to mentally prepare myself for our upcoming anniversary its a month away and I don't believe we will be celebrating it this year either. Last year H tried to offer me to go to dinner with our son (blamed on him having to work).
This year I'm already preparing to NOT be shocked, hurt or surprised if the day is totally ignored by H. I'm not getting H a gift or card, not planning to even mention the day, unless H brings it up.
Things seem to be getting a little better with H, he is less tense, sleeping back in bed, having more conversations with me (no R or M talk from either of us). He is acting a little jealous about where Im going and who Im with. H is hinting at sex more.
And with all that, I seem to be getting more tired of it all. It's easier to not think about my F UP marriage, not wonder about H or how he is feeling or what he wants/needs. I'm starting to not care! This may not be good with H starting to make what could be "making his way back" to M or R very slowly and now each day Im caring less and less about if this M is repaired or not.
I'm starting to feel like I felt when I was a WAS, and now I wonder if what H said was true, I only started to care/pay attention when H told me he no longer wanted to be married, or be a husband any more.
But NO, I know I have been and will continue to work on me, I know I'm a much better person and these are not temporary changes. The stronger I get, the more I wonder if my H even deserves me. I know that sounds horrible. But I'm better person, and not sure if my H is or will ever be the person I need to spend the rest of my life with...
WOW I can not believe I just said that...what is going on,,,what is this,,,
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Me 43 ring off Oct 2014 (my ring back on Feb 2015) H 51 (ring off 7/2013) M 2007 T 1996 S 14 July 2013- H told me he was unhappy.....said he is staying for Son Feb 18 2014 Found out about OW
