yeah im having a really rough day . i was drinking a bit on the weekend and that may contribute to my down feelings . When i feel like this i wish i could just flip a switch and turn those feelings off . Its very hard > I miss mife wife sooooo much but im trying hard to detach which means more detaching . I can see how detaching keeps her around but it doesnt seem to draw her in . Sometimes it seems to a bit but not much . I hurt so bad today that i back slid alot . I texted her clingy needy message then she called me and i was a mess .I hate myself every time i backslide but the pain is so great . Im gonna read Sandis rules again > i hope someone can chime in because Im a complete mess today


Me 45 W 45
Son 16 Son 14
Married 23 together 27
W threatened sep several times
W still at home
A discovered Mar 17 2014
A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )