Update 7/21 (part 2) After we picked the kids up and went home, we cooled off a lot. Friendly conversations took place that evening. I apologized for being an "A-hole". We had a heart to heart and I said I reacted irrationally because I really really miss her.
She asked what is it about her that I miss.
I said, "I miss touching you. I miss kissing you. I miss having you as my wife and my soulmate."
Her face showed me she was genuinely touched.
She replied, "How did it feel holding my hand today"?
I shed a tear and replied, "It felt good. So good"
She reiterated the fact that even though she knows what I'm going through that she will always be there for emotional support and help me through these times. It's such a conflict of interest, and I've have a hard time wrapping my head around it.
Later that night, after the kids went to bed, she left to be with him. She said she wanted a head start the next day because they were going on a semi-long drive. I hugged her and said "enjoy your day tomorrow".
M: 15 years BD: 6/25/14 EA/PA: starts 5/14/14 11/30/14 - A ends 5/15/15 - D is finalized. 11/28/15 - Start of new LTR with a wonderful woman (and still going strong)!
