Bea, I'm sorry you are having to deal w/his anger after all of this time. No one knows what is going through his mind and none of us knows how he actually feels. The desperation that he's been showing makes me wonder if there is a health issue that is "ticking" he wants to put things right in his twilight years...but there is a better way to do such things, IMO.
Please take care of yourself and do whatever you need to do to head off further harassment, if at all possible.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
