Yesterday was Lillian's baptism. It was wonderful. During mass H kept putting his hands on my waist/back every time we had to stand in front with Father. I didn't make a scene in church, I sarcastically asked H if he was going to take communion and he looked down at the floor and said no. I told him he should probably go to confession first.
After Mass we were getting ready to take pictures and I looked at H and said "happy family or reality" to which he replied happy family please. So we did pics together. (Lilly me H in some, me H and all the kids, you get the idea)
Back at my house everyone had a great time, it was relaxed and I had such a good time talking to friends/family. I made a white peach sangria that was AMAZING! I kept getting compliments on the food (I made BBQ beef, ham, potato salad, pasta salad, fruit, veggie and cheese/salami trays, cupcakes, and cookies) One of H's brothers took a few plates of food home and told H he was so lucky to have a wife that could cook, he told me that he looks forward to holidays because he knows I will be doing the cooking.
It was a huge ego boost and put me in an even better mood.
I let the kids open new Nerf guns and lots of darts after most people left. S8 BFF and his family were there and the mom had errands to run after the party so I said the friend could stay for the rest of the day. H and I joined in on the Nerf war with the twins and older kids. Again, lots of laughter and a good time.
So today I am spending the morning reminding myself that yesterday wasn't really my life and getting back on the detaching path.
Me: 35 husband:39 Sons 16 and 11 from my first marriage Twins 5 (boy/girl) Daughter 3 Affair bomb 2/27/14 He moved in with ow 3/13/14 OW kicked him out 6/15/14 4/2016 he seeks help for sexual addiction