you guys are doing so well with detaching.. I find it so hard.. I have lots of strategies to not think and obsess but then the thought just jumps back in..
i wake up thinking about the situation:: don#t even get time to get out of bed and control my mind:: i know about accepting it and letting it go:: i just find it so hard: i am able to do several things at once and one of these things is think about my h and my marriage:: or lack there of:: coupled with abandonment issues and a fear of being alone:: eek I am a mess and I dont know if the boards help or not:: i read about others and think wow that really sux it is just like me but a i still dont have anything to offer as advice
and DB holds out hope for reconciliation.. and I wonder does that help me..I can work on myself and GAL without thinking we will ever reconcile... might be easier
I dont know
a really rough week coming up so i pretty sad and stressed...
