1 step forward, 1000 steps back - part 2

[Barrybran]

Mdu, I understand that you're confused, frustrated and hurt. You've come so far and you're back to square one. Reading these last few posts I feel as though you've forgotten the DB principles and what brought you to that good place. I feel as though you're dwelling on the negative and mindreading like crazy instead of getting back on the PMA horse and giving yourself a fighting chance.

You screwed up, plain and simple. There's no hiding it. You know it, your H knows it, we know it. It's not the end of your story. You KNOW what you did to attract your husband so you KNOW what you need to do to re-attract him. Sure, it will be more difficult; OW is permanently in the picture and your H will trust you even less after these recent outbursts. You can do it though.

As the others have said, OW is nothing to you. You're allowed to have feelings and you're wise enough to know how to control your thoughts and actions. You have a deep understanding by now that focusing on yourself brings positivity to your world.

Let's get back on that horse. Think of all the things that make you worthy to be with. Also, understand how your husband feels when you react the way you do. Control what you can control and let go of what you can not. You know this stuff. You know your husband. You've got this, mdu.