You need to work on detaching. I know it is hard, but really try. Then use the time you have until October to really work on yourself, and become the guy she would not want to live without.

Keep posting here on a regular basis and people will follow your story and chime in with words of wisdom and encouragement.

Best of luck to you

Me: 42
W: 32
Married 7 years together 8.5
S1: 7 S2:7
Bomb #1: 09-16-13
Recon #1: 11/13
A discovered 04-03-2014
W filed D 05-19-14 but never served me
I filed D 12-02-2014
S 05-31-14
Divorced 5-19-16