First post, confused

[asat82]

I know I shouldn't try to understand, but I just can't wrap my head around her decision to give anyone else a chance but me. I feel like we deserve a chance, and sometimes she does as well, but then continuing her life with her current group of friends somehow sways her against it. Is it a good thing or a bad things that a couple of time in the last 3 months or so she has said that we should work things out, I just don't get a chance before she changes her mind. Hoping that my going dark and focusing on bettering myself and changing for me will have an impact. It is hard to feel better while not in my own house. It's like I am experiencing another withdrawal from not visiting my house and animals, but I need to figure out a way through this. And I just hope my wife will be receptive and open one day. I just don't think I will ever close that door.. just not doing well =\