FINALLY SURFACING

[Fartiltre]

Just got home from the pool where Ds and I met up with W and the house is so empty now. I miss them already and I won’t see them for two weeks or so. It s!cks major!

I found myself feeling left a little outside today. Ds where naturally clinging to W after 2 weeks so she became the center of their attention – I had gotten used to be there and it is a nice place to be.
I will mind this for the future and not arrange something like today.

I felt a little awkward around W for the first time in a long time but it went ok. When saying goodbye I brought up the talk she has asked for and we agreed to do it soon. W did ask if I was busy (as if she wanted us to do something) but I had neighbors coming over for instruction on how to take care of my rabbits and ducks while I am away. I told W that I had plans and she simply said OK.

Now awaits an afternoon cleaning and packing and then an early bed! I leave for vacation tomorrow at 5AM.



Friend and I almost did the distance two days ago but I am killing myself. My avg. pulse is around 160 and that is too much – I will have to talk to my trainer about this.
I so much want to reach my goal of doing 1/10 of the ironman (400 meter oceanswim, 18 km bikeride and 4,2 km run) in 1h10m but it is going to be a close one. Competition is in two weeks.

The friend is the same as we were at the beach with few days ago and when I arrived his W came to me and apologized for the incident with W being there when we arrived. I told her not to worry and that things like this happen. That it was not her responsibility and that W and I had addressed it. She kept talking and totally agreed on the things I had said to W (without mentioning them). Friend did the same a little later.

Their reactions and my reaction when they addressed it made me feel good. I did right in telling W and I didn’t react as the old me. I didn’t put anybody down and I didn’t go back to the subject.