Three weeks in to my husband sleeping in a different bed and I blow it. I blow the basic rules and I plead, cry, lay out all the ways I'm going to change... To no avail, of course. I've been owning 18 years of faults, apologizing and promising change (yes, I read DB and DR but maybe I should beat myself over the head with them because that might convince me to actually follow what's in the books). Has he even ONCE in three weeks admitted to a single fault? No. Not one. Our marriage is falling apart and it's apparently 100% my fault. I've made him hate himself. I've made him dead inside. I'm bitter. And now he's staying overnight in a $600/night room by the beach because he needs to meditate. He didn't call to say goodnight to our daughter who is really confused by what is going on. I'm bitter that one person in a marriage has the power to destroy my life and my daughter's life without having to own any part of the failure. Grrr!! Anger stage!


M: 37 H: 36
M: 13 T: 18
D: 7
Bomb: 6/30/14
Separation: 8/11/14

Be strong enough to let go and wise enough to wait for what you deserve.