H called back, we had the longest phone convo we've had (other than upsetting/R angst) since OW discovery!
Granted, all we did was talk about the car (he's a mechanic and asking for his expert opinion doesn't hurt) but then we laughed and chatted about my event (crazy schedule) our "kids" and some odds and ends.
We promised to talk again tomorrow...
It felt good. After I hung up I had the distinct feeling that this man does indeed love me...he's just terrified of what he's done, what he's going through.
He's lonely and he's a mess.
As Cadet posted awhile back, I need to be more of a lighthouse, shining my light consistently for him to have hope and know the good and safe course to take.
I think I was turning my light off---and he didn't know I was still there, shining as strongly as ever.
It's a fine line between letting him know that I'm still there, letting him know I won't be forever, and enforcing my boundaries with actions.
He hasn't crossed my boundaries; he doesn't know that I know about the dating profile... Gross, yes, but may just be a lonely man's fantasy and all the rest of the MLC stuff. If he doesn't actually ACT on it, I guess it's just sort of pathetic.
As my friend said last night: "Guess he's really striking out in the real world. I mean, it's not like he can't get out there and meet people, right?"
But he can't. He doesn't go anywhere or do anything to meet people naturally.
Oh well. Gotta go throw down some serious swing music!
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Me 54 Him 63 M 23 T 29 0 Kids Funny Farm of Rescues 12/12 OW-- 5/13 ILYBINILWY: A denied 9/13 Proof OW: ENDED 2/14 Got D papers on my BD I kicked him out for my sanity 9/14 He wants to "talk"?
