What to do with my Picnic now?

[bustingout]

Thanks Job! I will hang in as much as I can, day to day. I think more than anything I am afraid of me...if that makes sense.

I haven't had an opportunity to 'practice' the new me in this type of relationship.. ( if that's what it is). I am the ' new' me with my other relationships to the point that it seems second nature.

Hmmmm.

I will follow his lead. And keep being me. I am trying to be very honest with him when an opportunity arises. In part of our 'talks' yesterday I did say that at times it's felt like emotional abuse.

I know he is trying in his actions and behaviors. I see it. For example, tomorrow the whole family is traveling to Berlin for a few days. We are driving. While packing we said me, him and the kids will all share one suitcase to save space.

I know this seems trivial, but little things like this that connect him to the family, have been happening. They were not happening in the past.

These small things really fascinate me... What is he thinking? What is driving him?