Finding my way - part 2

[Meghan]

labug - that's a really insightful point. I've become so focused on blaming myself and fixing things that I'm overthinking and unable to get any kind of sense of what to do or how to act because I focus so much on what I think I "should" do instead.

You've got me thinking now about whether I've just been pushing my intuition aside for goodness knows how long now. Clearly on some level I knew something was wrong or making me uncomfortable. I was pulling away pretty obviously and really, really anxious a lot of the time. But I didn't listen or really think too deeply about what was going on, which meant that I didn't step up and do much about it because I could excuse it or write it off.