Learning new things always feels awkward and abnormal, don't let that be your yardstick.

As all the "shoulds" fall away you can get more info from your intuitive self. Something that you've probably buried very deep.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss